I knew this day would come. Heart racing. Pulse pounding. I stood alone and terrified. 1 vs. 30.
I knew something like this would happen as soon as I made the decision to enter the public school system. I knew that I would be questioned. I was different and I knew that. I prayed that when the time came I would be ready. That I would have the answers. Rather that God would give me the answers. The day I had been preparing for since day 1 arrived today.
In science class we have been talking about evolution. Being a Christian in a public school is hard enough. Discussing something like evolution makes it that much harder. Knowing that your in the minority makes it hard to stand up and state what you believe. God wanted to get the message of creation out there and I was privileged enough to be the one he used. Today in science we had an “activity”. My science teacher would ask us questions and we would have to line up according to what we thought. We would line up on one side of the room if we agreed with one thing, line up on the other side of the room if we disagreed, and in the middle of the room if we wanted both or we didn’t care. Somehow I knew what question was coming before it was out in the open and I was prepared. Then came the words, “creationist over here. I don’t care in the middle. Evolutionist over here.” I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and took the step that put me in a position that put me by myself. I knew this day would come. Heart racing. Pulse pounding. I stood alone and terrified. 1 vs. 30. When I turned around I knew what to expect, but it still knocked the breath out of me when I saw no one on the middle and no one next to me. I faced 30 people opposing me and my knees started knocking. What had I gotten myself into? Why did I have to do that? Then this unexpected confidence overcame me and I knew that I was not truly alone. There was someone so much greater than me standing there with me. Holding my hand. Facing those same people with me. God was there. I shared what I thought really happened in the beginning of time. I asked questions and respectfully challenged them as they challenged me. I knew that I had done the right thing and the feeling I got was fantastic. I felt as though I was flying. I knew without a shadow of a doubt I had done the right thing. I started shaking with relief and I knew that God had just used me to get his message across. I knew I had’t done it alone.
After having this experience I feel like I belong in this school. That God has greater plans for me than I have for myself. God doesn’t need a big show to bring glory to Him. He uses anyone, anywhere and I’m thankful I got to experience something like this.
I knew something like this would happen as soon as I made the decision to enter the public school system. I knew that I would be questioned. I was different and I knew that. I prayed that when the time came I would be ready. That I would have the answers. Rather that God would give me the answers. The day I had been preparing for since day 1 arrived today.
In science class we have been talking about evolution. Being a Christian in a public school is hard enough. Discussing something like evolution makes it that much harder. Knowing that your in the minority makes it hard to stand up and state what you believe. God wanted to get the message of creation out there and I was privileged enough to be the one he used. Today in science we had an “activity”. My science teacher would ask us questions and we would have to line up according to what we thought. We would line up on one side of the room if we agreed with one thing, line up on the other side of the room if we disagreed, and in the middle of the room if we wanted both or we didn’t care. Somehow I knew what question was coming before it was out in the open and I was prepared. Then came the words, “creationist over here. I don’t care in the middle. Evolutionist over here.” I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and took the step that put me in a position that put me by myself. I knew this day would come. Heart racing. Pulse pounding. I stood alone and terrified. 1 vs. 30. When I turned around I knew what to expect, but it still knocked the breath out of me when I saw no one on the middle and no one next to me. I faced 30 people opposing me and my knees started knocking. What had I gotten myself into? Why did I have to do that? Then this unexpected confidence overcame me and I knew that I was not truly alone. There was someone so much greater than me standing there with me. Holding my hand. Facing those same people with me. God was there. I shared what I thought really happened in the beginning of time. I asked questions and respectfully challenged them as they challenged me. I knew that I had done the right thing and the feeling I got was fantastic. I felt as though I was flying. I knew without a shadow of a doubt I had done the right thing. I started shaking with relief and I knew that God had just used me to get his message across. I knew I had’t done it alone.
After having this experience I feel like I belong in this school. That God has greater plans for me than I have for myself. God doesn’t need a big show to bring glory to Him. He uses anyone, anywhere and I’m thankful I got to experience something like this.
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