Falling in love with who I was created to be and not who I have created myself to be.

I'm going on a make-up fast.


okay....so I know that girls do this a lot and so maybe you've heard of it before, but I'd like to explain my reasons why and then ask you, as my friends and family, to hold me accountable.


I've been asking God, lately, to show me ways that I can step out in faith and trust him. He's been showing me that I place a lot more value on hair and make up than I care to admit. I lack self-confidence when I don't wear make-up. It used to be a non-issue for me. I prided myself in my ability to not need to wear make-up to feel like I could conquer the day. Now I wake up, and if I don't do my make-up in at least someway, I will fall apart at the smallest thing and just have a really negative outlook on myself and my day in general.

Last semester, God taught me a lot about what it meant to let Him romance my heart into the greatest love story that I have ever known. It's been a magnificent adventure so far and I'm really excited about the direction that God is taking my life! It's an amazingly humbling experience. This semester God is showing me that in order to be truly romanced and in love with Him, I need to give Him control over my whole life. Even little things like wearing make-up, He needs to have it all so that I can feel beautiful and loved because there is someone great and mighty who loves me to my very core. I am loved by the very creator of my soul. He knows the longings and desires of my heart, even the things I'm too scared to admit to myself. He knows me. He loves me. And it's a crazy radical love. The kind of love that caused Him to send His Son to die, just so he could know me. It's silly, really, that I find my self-worth and value in anything other than Him. It doesn't make sense because nothing in this world, will make me feel as beautiful as he does. No one loves me as much as he does. I am his bride and He is my forever husband. I'm taking this make-up fast so I can fall in love with the person that He sees and loves and not the one that many other people get to see.

I have no idea how long this make-up fast will last. I'm just going to do it until God lets me know when He wants me to do something else. I'm probably not gunna love it at first, and it's going to leave me feeling super vulnerable and insecure. I am trusting that my Savior and lover of my soul will swoop in and save me from the traps of the lies in my head. My knight in shining armor is going to show me who He loves, and let me fall in love with her too.

I am really excited......and a little bit nervous. Pray for me. It'll be much needed and much appreciated.